Matan Abudy

Writing Without Apologies: A Reminder to Myself

I’m not a fan of posts that explain “where I’ve been” or “why I haven’t written in the past X weeks.” This is my blog—my space to say what I want, when I want.

It’s more of a content choice than a general philosophy; I simply don’t want to write a post that lists everything that’s happened just to catch everyone up on my life. My blog isn’t a life-update chronicle—it’s a collection of ideas and thoughts I want to organize and maybe share with the world.

In that sense, I want to give every meaningful experience I’ve had—and want to write about—its own post, or at least avoid reducing it to just another bullet point in a list.

I also don’t want to feel like I’m racing to write posts. There’s no rush. I can write about something meaningful that happened yesterday or a year ago in the same way.

To me, the opposite mindset would be holding back my writing because I feel like I need to do something first—like updating, explaining, or justifying—before I can share my current thoughts about something that happened to me. And yet, here I am writing this post, explaining why I don’t want to write these kinds of explanations, just to clear space for myself to write more freely. Some dissonance, I know.

This post might be public, but it’s for me: a reminder that I owe no explanations, only what feels right to write. I know I’ve held myself back from writing at times, losing my way in the process. As time passed, I felt like I needed to write a “catch-up” post just to get it out of the way and return to the kind of writing I enjoy. But there’s no need for that. Hopefully, this will be the last time I put something like this in my way.

Anyway, here I am—back at it.